Welp I officially reached the end of my first trimester! Next Monday I'll be at 15 weeks. Too crazy. Part of me feels like time if flying by, and then another part of me feels like time is going extra slow.
I always knew that pregnancy was no walk in the park. I had heard from countless ladies about the nausea and the fatigue that accompanies the first trimester, but I don't think until you're actually going through it, you realize just how much of a struggle it is. I have no idea how ladies continue working this entire time, especially those that keep their pregnancy a secret until they are out of the first trimester. So much respect for you ladies. You're much stronger than I am. I don't know if it's like this for everyone, but I have never been so sick and tired in my life. I feel incredibly grateful and unbelievably blessed that I get to work from home and honestly, being my own boss, I've been giving myself a lot of time off lately. Now than I'm in my second trimester though, I'm thinking positive thoughts that I'll be feeling much better soon, and I've been trying real hard to get my act back together and get back to blogging and running my etsy shop.
Fun stuff that's been happening lately:
We got another ultrasound just before Christmas. I can't even believe what a difference three weeks makes. In the first ultrasound we could kind of tell where the head and feet were and we could see the little heart beating real good. But the second ultrasound, oh my goodness. My baby has grown so much and looks exactly like a tiny little baby now. Which I know some of you are like, duh that's what they are supposed to look like. But I was so caught off guard to actually see this tiny little human wiggling around inside of me. We could see him/her stretching and rolling over and it was probably one of the most amazing things I've ever seen in my entire life. It was a moment I will never forget.
I think I have been (and am still continuing to do) protecting my heart. I still carry a tiny fear that I may lose this baby. So even though I'm insanely excited, I'm still a little guarded. But seeing my baby actually move inside of me and look like a tiny human, that made it all so real. I'm attached. And I already think I have the most perfect baby in the entire world. I'm itching for another ultrasound because seeing my baby is probably one of my most favorite things to do. And I'm dying to know if I'm having a boy or a girl. My family is convinced (and absolutely, almost annoyingly insistent) that I'm having a girl. So just to be a stinker, I'm hoping for a boy ha ha but honestly I'd be happy with anything. I just want a baby, a little family of my own. Boy or girl, I'll be the happiest woman in the world if I deliver a healthy, beautiful baby in July.
Every time I go to see the doctor my due date gets moved up another day ha ha right now we have landed on July 11th. I'm going to laugh if this baby is born on July 7th because for one, seven is my favorite and my lucky number. And secondly, that's the day that I got married. Plus having a baby around the 4th of July, one of my favorite holidays (but let's get real, all holidays are my favorite), just sounds like one of the most fun things ever.
Also, I keep getting asked if I'm having twins because I'm showing so early. So far two ultrasounds have revealed only one baby? Unless that second one is hiding really well, I'll just be having one baby in July. I really do feel like I'm showing insanely early though. None of my pants fit from before I got pregnant, not even my elastic band jeggings. And I'm just at the point where I don't even want to wear pants anymore ha ha I want no pressure on my stomach whatsoever, maybe just because I've been so nauseous. Money is tight around these parts, and since I don't feel like investing in expensive maternity jeans, I went on a serious hunt for some stretchy pants because the wearing pajama pants all day had to stop. After three stores, I discovered the most perfect pants at...Walmart? I was shocked because I had never really bought clothes from Walmart before but you guys, I have never worn such comfortable pants in my entire life. Thank you Walmart stretchy jeans. I don't know how I'd survive right now without you.
Major changes are taking place in my etsy shop. I might write more on this later but just know that I made the decision to start selling all of my patterns. So if you've ever seen anything in my shop or anything I've shown on instagram that you'd like to know how it's made, I'll slowly be releasing those patterns one at a time. I say slowly because I'm a perfectionist and really want my patterns to be extremely clear so I'm taking the time to take pictures of possible tricky steps. I'm not sure how many pictures etsy will let me include in the files though so we'll see how things go. I've been at this etsy thing for over a year now, and I've just never been happy with my shop. And business is always extremely slow anyway so I figure I might as well just pursue the things that make me happy and nothing makes me happier than designing new pieces and sharing any and all of the knowledge I gain with you guys. So selling patterns seems like a no brainer. Plus this way I can hopefully keep my shop open and making a little extra money once the baby comes. Wish me luck on this new adventure! Hope you are all as excited as I am!
I can't even remember the last home update I posted on here, but we've been busy little bees and you probably wouldn't even recognize my house right now. We finally tore down that wall between the living room and dining room. (Have I already mentioned this?) My house feels so open and light and beautiful now. It makes me so happy. I'll definitely be writing a blog post on that adventure in the future. We've also painted the inside of our front door with the most perfect, crisp white so now the door looks brand new which makes my heart sing. Jake got rid of the popcorn ceiling in the nursery (which was the last room in our house that had popcorn yay!) and he textured the ceiling and painted the entire room. Lots of changes happening as we get ready for the baby! I am so excited to share all these changes with you guys! My house is starting to look so pretty.
Man and we've got many more renovation projects planned for the next few months. The one I'm most excited for? New flooring throughout the entire house (excluding bathrooms). It's gonna be intense but these nasty 70's carpets have got to go. When we tore that wall down, I decided to take a peek at what was underneath the carpet and oh my gosh, I about died. Huge black circle stains. So gross. No way am I letting my little baby lay on that carpet and learn to crawl and walk on those floors. I feel so blessed and so grateful that things are somehow working out that we will be able to have nice, clean, new flooring by the time the baby comes.
I am just so giddy and so happy about life right now. And after feeling like a cloud was hanging over me for so long (dealing with infertility and a struggling business), I just feel like a breath of fresh air is being washed over me. Life is looking so good. And I am so excited for everything that is to come.
So yep basically I'm writing this week just to admit that I've been a total hot mess and that even though I've been extra quiet lately, I'm happy and healthy and the baby is doing good. I am so happy with this little blessing that's growing in my tummy, but honestly, it's been hard to function like a normal adult ever since I got pregnant. I feel extremely accomplished if I manage to do the dishes, laundry, and cook dinner during the day ha ha so trying to write or work on my business just hasn't even seemed possible. But I'm trying real hard to get my life back together, and I'm hoping to get into the swing of blogging regularly again real soon and giving you guys things to read besides me rambling about my life. A huge thank you to those of you who have stuck around even while I've been quiet. You're all the best.