I just want to be a mom: update.

I just want to be a mom: update - darling be brave

I don't even know where to begin.  Part of me knew that my last post, 'I just want to be a mom' would be read by quite a few people (mostly family and friends) but I don't think I realized just how many people (especially strangers) would come read what I had wrote.  My natural wallflower tendencies is a little embarrassed to have even said anything, but mostly I am so so grateful I was brave and shared a little piece of my soul because never in my life have I felt so loved and so humbled. 

I received so many messages, comments, emails and text messages and I just thank you all from the bottom of my heart.  Thank you for the wishful thoughts, the prayers, the kind words and the encouragement.  Thank you for giving me hope, peace and comfort.  Thank you to all who opened up to me, a total stranger, and for sharing your experiences, your pain, your worries.  It helped to not feel alone, to not feel different, but most of all I think it helped me realize that my worries are so small compared to others.  I've never said so many prayers.  I just want us all to be mommas and have as many rugrats running around as we can handle.  I love you guys and am constantly praying and thinking of you all.

For those of you who wanted to know, the doctor visit went fine.  It was kind of pointless, a conversation that probably could have taken place over the phone, but I was told to buy an ovulation predictor kit (man those can be freaking expensive) to check to see if I'm ovulating or not.  And if I'm not, to check back in the office right away.  But if I am, to give it another four months.  So we'll just see how things go.

For those of you struggling with this, know that you are not alone and that there's always hope.  And know that I am always here for you.  We all have different paths in life but everything happens for a reason and it will all work out in the end.

I'm just going to keep working at taking better care of myself, eating healthy and stressing less.  Just take a deep breath, and keep living my life, not allow this consume me anymore.  I have so much to be grateful for and so much happiness around me.  Life is good my friends.  Hopefully someday soon I'll be a momma but until then, I'm just going to enjoy the rest of summer and get ready for the fall.  Anyone else already insanely excited for the holidays?  My husband had to talk me out of watching Elf the other night because I'm already that excited about Christmas.  I blame my etsy shop, always thinking a season or two ahead ha ha.

Much love my dear sweet friends!  I'm always here if any of you need me.



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