Welp this is by far the latest I've ever been to post one of these ha ha Madison will be four months old in less than a week...but once again the pictures were taken on her three month birthday so that half counts right?
This kid, you guys, I swear she gets more adorable everyday. Her little personality is just shining through.
I haven't been around babies much in my life, so I'm sure this is a totally normal thing, but it's incredible how even at just under four months old, this tiny little thing has a full fledged personality and wants and desires, likes and dislikes. Not just superficial stuff like "Oh she really loves this stuffed animal," but very specific things like how she likes to spend her time and how she interacts with people and how to talk to her and treat her.
She has different cries and ways to communicate. It just amazes me. I love watching her personality get more vibrant with each passing day. She's such a fun kid, an absolute joy to be around. Life with her now is completely different than it was her first month of life. Sure she's still sassy and feisty, but she always has a reason such as she's tired or hungry or just sick of doing whatever it is that we were doing. She's very particular about how she likes to spend her days ha ha I joke that she's my boss.
She's feisty, a demanding little thing and not very patient. When she wants something, she wants it right now this very second. Or if she doesn't like something, she'll start to throw a fit. She lets me know without hesitation when she's tired of doing whatever we are doing.
If she's ready to go play with her toys, she starts sassing until I put her down. If she's absolutely sick of tummy time, she'll throw a complete fit until I help her roll back over. If she's exhausted and I'm not moving through the steps fast enough to get her to bed, non stop fussing. She's not shy about her needs in the least.
But at the same time, it's so easy to take care of her because I almost always know exactly what she needs and how to take care of her to make her happy. And making her happy is just the best feeling. The second she's satisfied, she's the sweetest, easiest baby. If she's tired and I lay her down for a nap, she goes right to sleep. If she's fussing because she doesn't want to be held anymore, I lay her down with her play gym and she's as content as can be. If she's sassing me because she's hungry, five minutes into a feeding she'll unlatch just to look me in the eye and give me the biggest grin. Makes my heart swell.
For me, I think she's just an angel. People tell me she's pretty demanding/not easy going for a baby, but now that her and I have a rhythm, taking care of her is the easiest thing in the world. I hope it stays this way. I pray every night to be intune with her needs so I can take care of her the way she needs me to and the last month or so, I've been really blessed.
We wake up each morning around seven, and she's always all smiles and coos. It used to be she'd start scream crying whenever she'd wake up (that has to be the worst way to be woken up by the way) but now she's just an absolute doll. I'll hear her wiggling in her bed or she'll start talking to herself, and the second she makes eye contact with me, she breaks out into a big grin. The whole day with her is pretty easy. She stays awake for about an hour or two between naps and we have long talks or sing songs or she plays with her play gym. When she's tired, she makes it extremely obvious, and I can nurse her and lay her down and within minutes, she's fallen asleep.
I don't know how to explain it (and I think I'm doing a terrible job ha ha) but somehow, in a way, she's both the sassiest baby and the easiest baby. Now that I've gotten to know her pretty well and know how to make her happy, being her mom is just the greatest feeling in the world. Sure we have hard days, days where she's extremely fussy and I run out of ideas on how to soothe her, but now that we are almost four months in, the good and easy days way out number the hard days. And I'm just so grateful for how far we've come.
She's just my best friend. The best thing to ever happen to me. Being a mom has probably been the most challenging experience of my life but words can't even begin to express the love and appreciation I have for this child. My life was so empty before her. I don't even know how I ever lived before her. I feel so blessed. My heart just swells at the thought of her. Right now as I type this she's sleeping and I just want to go give her a big hug. I love getting to know her each day and the special relationship we have.
So yeah sorry about that mad ramble. Long story short, she's still just as sassy as she's always been, a demanding little thing. But her and I are starting to get to know each other pretty well, and most of the time I can tell why she's upset and I know how to fix it. And I love her sass (even though I can tell it's going to be a real challenge as she gets older) but she's also the sweetest most fun baby I've ever seen.
I'll be honest, I'm pretty tired and crunched for time so I have a feeling this post is going to be a bit of a rambling mess. Bear with me. I think it's important I document her little milestones each month. Well at least it's important to me. Even if I am always really late at posting these.
She kind of hates getting her picture taken so I always have to time these just right after her first nap of the day and even then, like three minutes in she's done and starts fussing ha ha
The little stink went from being a great sleeper, going to bed easily around 8pm every night and sleeping until 6 or 7am, to the worst sleeper last week (and a couple nights this week too). It's been a bit of fight to get her to bed and then she wakes at midnight, 2am, and 5am. At first, I was devastated and at a complete loss, quickly reverting to those nightmarish sleepless nights that were her first month of life. But now I'm just going with the flow because so far, it's been easy to get her back to sleep. Just part of being a mom to always be tired right?
Before the last couple weeks, she slept crazy good. Sometimes she'd let out little cries in the night or start to fuss but it never lasted long and she'd fall back asleep, and she used to sleep until 6 or 7am. It was so nice. But hopefully we'll get back to those days soon. But I mean, she's just four months old, still a tiny little thing. It's honestly not that big of a big deal. I change her and feed her and most of the time, she goes right back to sleep.
We are getting better at nap times. I'm starting to learn her body language and can usually recognize when she's tired and I can nurse her a little, lay her down, and she goes right to sleep. I always feel a little strange in the morning because it seems like it's a struggle for her to even stay awake for an hour ha ha so even though we are up at 7 most days, she's back to sleep by 8 or 8:30 and sleeps for another two or three hours. That small little nap window is when I get most of my work done, and I get anxiety on the days where that nap doesn't happen or gets cut short because I know that I won't get much done that day, but then I try to remind myself that being her mommy is my most important job and we try to have some fun.
This little baby is like her mama though and needs lots of sleep. And on days where I miss her nap window, she turns into an incredibly fussy little thing. It feels strange for me to have her sleep as much as she does, but I figure she must need her rest because you can't really force a baby to sleep ya know? She can usually only be awake for an hour or two between naps, anything longer and she gets really upset. It kind of makes leaving the house almost impossible. I've always been a homebody, but, I'll admit, it is kind of trippy to go an entire week never stepping foot outside and not even realizing it ha ha. I know the days where we can all go shopping or go visit family will soon come. She's still so little, and she needs her rest so the world will have to wait.
We're still working on tummy time, but I'm happy to say she's getting to a point where she'll be content on her tummy for a couple of minutes before she starts to fuss. At one point in her life, if I laid her on her stomach, she'd instantly start scream crying which would inevitably make me start crying alongside her ha ha
Everyone tells me I have such a serious baby, and I know why they feel that way. She rarely smiles for a camera or family or friends, she just observes everyone quietly with no facial expressions. But I know she's not a serious baby at all because she and I have a special relationship. She has the sweetest sweetness within her that she seems to only share with me and her daddy.
With me, she's all smiles and coos all the time. She greets me each morning with smiles, in the middle of feedings she'll unlatch just so she can look at me with a big ol' grin and tell me a little story, and we talk and play all day. One day a couple weeks ago we spent the entire day blowing raspberries to one another. I love the way she looks deep into my eyes, trying to absorb everything I have to say, and I watch the way her little mouth moves while I talk, knowing she's just itching to respond to me. She's adorable and sweet and observant and fun and silly. I love her to pieces. We laugh (or I guess I laugh because I'm still waiting to hear her first laugh) all day everyday. She isn't a serious baby at all.
She's the same way for her daddy, giving him smiles and coos all the time. She lights up everyday when he gets home from work. She loves to rub her little toes and fingers in his beard and she lights up whenever she sees him. When he's talking to me, she'll just stare at him with wide eyes. Then if he makes eye contact with her, she'll let out a big smile and bury her face in my chest as if she's shy or so happy she can't handle it. Makes my heart explode.
She's starting to take notice in our dog Lexi too and will flash her a smile whenever she see's her. I can't wait for the day that those two can play together. It's going to be so cute.
She wants to sit up by herself so bad. If I'm sitting on the couch and lean her against my chest or prop of my knees to lean her against my lap, she'll fuss and grunt and attempt to do crunches until she sits herself (or I help her sit) upright. She's far from being able to sit up without me bracing her but it's still amazing how strong she is. She can keep herself sitting upright by just holding onto my fingers or if I help brace her on one side. She'll be sitting up unassisted before I know it, and it's going to be so adorable.
I already can't remember what I wrote on her last month's post but I feel like I mentioned she was chewing on her hands and her love to chew on things is stronger than ever. She tries to bring everything to her mouth to chew on, her hands, my hands, my hair, burp cloths, wash cloths. She's still working on getting coordinated enough to bring toys to her mouth but right now she's really loving her teething necklaces from Minted Lane, and this beautiful teething ring from Little Ewe and Me.
All day long she's trying to shove stuff in her mouth to chew on. Her grandma thinks she might be teething already but I'm hoping that's not the case ha ha she's drooling a lot but maybe she's just discovering her mouth and enjoying new textures? Or maybe I just really don't want her to be teething already so I'm in denial?
Call my crazy but I'm really looking forward to her being able to sit up and crawl. She's going to be so fun to play with, and it's going to be so neat to watch her little world open up. I feel like she's frustrated most the time because she's so limited in what she's able to do. She's gonna be in heaven when she's fully mobile. And I'm going to both love it and be stressed out, trying to keep her and the puppy out of mischief ha ha
When she plays with her play gym, she's starting to get her feet involved, kicking at the toys. It's just fun to watch her learn to use her body in new ways. She's also started to grab ahold of the toys and tries to bring them to her mouth. And just last night she grabbed ahold of her toes for the first time. So stinking cute.
She outgrew her swaddle a couple of weeks ago which really freaked me out at first. The swaddle is what helped her start sleeping through the night when she was super colicky so I was terrified to try getting her to sleep without it but she didn't even seem to notice a difference and slept through the night just the same.
She still loves bath time and is becoming the biggest wiggle bug the second she's in the tub, starting to splash like crazy and it startles her sometimes ha ha so cute.
She's starting to get so chunky and I love it!!
Everyone that sees her says she looks just like me which I secretly love :)
It takes a lot of effort on my part but sometimes I can get her to coo at the camera. Now if I could only figure out how to get her to smile for the camera. The instant a lens or my phone is in her face, she gets serious ha ha I'll try to take little recordings of her when she's cooing or smiling and I have to be incredibly sneaky or else she'll immediately stop. Silly kid. Did the same thing in my tummy. Whenever I'd try to get anyone to feel her kick or hiccup, she'd stop and hold very still.
She smiles so big whenever her daddy whistles.
And she loves it when I sing (even though I seem to not know the words to many songs and am almost always off key bless her heart) and sometimes she tries to sing with me and it makes my heart just about burst.
Isn't she just absolutely perfect?
This post ended up being way longer than I thought it would be ha ha but I guess technically I'm squeezing two months into one. Unless her four month post is really late like this one (which hopefully it won't be), it'll probably be pretty short ha ha so if you made it this far, thanks for reading!