Well...this post is late. Like insanely late. But to be honest, I've been having a little bit of a hard time lately. Nothing big at all is going on so don't worry. In fact, life is crazy good. It's just crazy busy too. And I kinda don't like how busy I've been forcing myself to be. So lately, I've been taking a lot of mental health days and just enjoying time with my baby girl.
But Madison turned five months old on 12/9, and I panicked because I hadn't gotten around to writing out her four month update. What do I do? Combine them both into one post? I mean, I've already taken her five month old pictures. But that just didn't feel right. I don't even know if anyone besides me really looks forward to these posts. Maybe my grandma still reads my blog and likes to read these things ha ha but what I'm trying to say is, to be honest, I write these posts mainly with just me and Madison in mind, as a way we can look back someday and see all the highlights of her growing up. Hopefully you guys are cool with that.
So the point of the story is when I started this series, I wanted one blog post dedicated to celebrating each month of Madison's life. So even though I'm always late at posting these, this month more than ever, I'm just going to go ahead and write about what life was like during her fourth (and a couple weeks of her fifth) month here on earth. And then I'll just see what ends up happening for her five months blog post ha ha
How perfect is this picture?? Madison is starting to smile more and more and I'm in heaven. During this photoshoot, I could only catch a smile for the first two photos. The rest of the photo session, she really wasn't feeling it and kind of just laid there ha ha but I was so tickled pink excited that I caught two pictures of her smiling!
She smiles all the time now though. I discovered when I make this weird surprised face and make this gasping type noise, she gets a kick out of it. So now if I want her to smile for a photo, I just make a fool out of myself for a little bit, and I can catch a bunch of sweet smiles. It's the best.
We've managed to sneak a couple of laughs out of her but man is it hard. She doesn't let those laughs out just for anything. She really makes us work for it and even then, it's like one laugh and she's done. She's a little ticklish at her neck so sometimes we can tickle a laugh or two out and for some reason, she gets a kick out of that surprised face and will sometimes laugh at that. I love her laughs SO much and hope we get to a point soon where she just giggles all day. That would be heaven.
She talks to herself all day now and sometimes it sounds like she's singing and I'm just so obsessed with her voice. It's the sweetest thing ever, and I just want to bottle it up in a jar and be able to listen to it forever. To overly compensate, I fill up all my phone's memory with little video recordings of her everyday just because I don't want to forget a thing. #firstchildproblems
She's getting so chunky! I mean look at those thighs! And she's even bigger now it's crazy! Whenever anyone sees her, they comment on how healthy she looks and it just makes me beam with pride because it's unreal for me to think that ever since she was a teeny tiny little pea pod in my belly, I've provided every ounce of nutrients to this little lady. I've had my own challenges with motherhood, but I just thank the heavens above that breastfeeding wasn't one of those problems. That's the one thing that came easily for both of us, and I'm ever so grateful because I know this isn't always the case with new mama's.
We just bought her a high chair though and are about to start our "trying new foods" journey here in the next couple days! So excited! I have dreams of making baby food for her so if any of you do that or have done that and you wanna give me any suggestions, they would be much appreciated.
She's discovered her toes and grabs at them all day. She even managed to pull her socks off the other day and I was like "Aw this is cute right now, but I'm sure I'll hate this later" ha ha ha and it's taking me so long to write this post that she now is able to officially grab her toes and suck on them!
She is currently showing almost zero interest in rolling over. One night I laid her down for tummy time, and she was sticking her bum up in the air and scooting all around and was SO close to rolling over! And then basically she's never done that again. But on the bright side, she's totally cool with tummy time now which blows my mind because gosh she used to just bloody murder scream and cry if I laid her down on her stomach. Now she just lays there and sucks on her hands or rests her head on the ground (which is insanely adorable by the way).
It's kinda weird but we've currently settled into the routine of I put her to bed between 6 and 7:30, depending on how fussy she gets or what plans we've got going on. And then she seems to wake up at least once before I go to bed and then she wakes me up once or twice in the night. A quick diaper change and feeding and she's right back to sleep. Not too bad at all. I just got spoiled before with her sleeping for 8+ hour stretches ha ha
Anyway she's officially a big girl now in her cute crib that I spent days painting white and making all nice for her when I was nearly nine months pregnant. And part of me is so happy and proud of her to have her in her own room. And another part of me wants to just bawl my eyes out because it seems just a second ago she was a teeny tiny newborn sleeping just a few feet away from me. Motherhood is so confusing sometimes ha ha
Like I said earlier, we are settling into a new routine. Moment of vulnerability, Madison was such a sassy baby when she was first born that the only place she'd nap was either on me or in her swing and then eventually the only place she'd nap was in her swing. I know some people are way against having their baby sleep in a swing, and before Madison was born, I totally thought they were kind of a waste of money, but when you're in deep into newborn-ness and you're desperate for everyone to get a little peace, a swing starts to look like pure magic. It worked for us for a long time. I could read her signals and tell when she was getting tired, buckle her in to the swing, and turn it on and she'd nap so good for an hour or two. The swing was in our living room so I could always keep an eye on her, and I'd just tip toe around the house, being as quiet as possible, but so happy I could get stuff done while she got the rest she needed.
Well around that four month mark, she wouldn't even sleep in her swing. I lost all ability to read my child and know what she needed. After feeling in tune with her for so long, it was devastating to me to have all the rules to the game changed and me not knowing what to do. Same with ditching the Rock n Play Sleeper, I figured since she's not napping and about to grow out of this thing anyway, time for the crib.
It was so weird at first not having her in the same room as me all the time. And it was a lot harder to get her to fall asleep for a nap when I couldn't just strap her into a swing that would help soothe her to sleep. But I'm happy to say that after a month of using the crib anytime she's sleepy, we are doing pretty dang good. I'm slowly figuring out my baby again. It used to be that whenever I'd lay her down for a nap, she'd talk to herself for twenty or so minutes before she fell asleep. But lately, even when I lay her down wide awake, she doesn't hardly make a peep and when I check on her a few minutes later, she's fast asleep. It's such a relief to have her sleeping peacefully again.
This little lady is figuring out her vocal chords and absolutely loves to see just how high of a pitch she can squeal. It's usually pretty funny but sometimes after it's gone on for ten or so minutes I'm like, "Okay let's find a different note to hit" ha ha ha it's cute though. I mentioned this earlier, but sometimes it sounds like she's singing and I just love it so much.
Another hilarious new sound she makes is she growls whenever she's feeling sassy (or sometimes when she's bored) ha ha I wish I could describe it better but she just makes these raspy growling sounds and makes the cutest face like she's angry and chewing me out. The best is when it's the middle of the night and she's convinced she's starving and she makes the growls until I get her fed ha ha it's so funny. I'm like, "Is this real life right now? My child sounds like a wild animal" ha ha ha
Madison is kind of getting to the point where she's patient enough for me to read to her and I've been having so much fun reading to her everyday during tummy time.
She still throws a fit every time we go to Walmart though ha ha but maybe she's like her mama and doesn't like to be around too many people. Our store is always SO busy and hectic to be in. It's not very fun for anybody.
Her and Lexi (our dog) are becoming the best of friends. Lexi is so cute and gentle with her and Madison just lights up anytime Lexi comes in the room. I'm so excited to see them play together and be besties when Madison gets a little older.
Madison might not really be showing any interest in rolling over but she's so close to being able to sit up by herself! A few times now she's been able to hold herself up for about ten seconds and then she loses her balance. We're getting real close though.
My baby looks like a porcelain doll sometimes, you guys. I can't even believe how beautiful she is.
She may not be much for cuddling, but this baby loves to hold hands. Any chance she gets, she grabs ahold of my fingers, and I just melt inside. Even during diaper changes or when I'm getting her dressed or giving her a bath, she'll reach out and grab my hand and I'm like, "Okay everything else can wait. Hold my hand as long as you'd like to baby girl." I'm simultaneously living in this strange place of wanting to freeze time and have her be this age forever while also super looking forward to the days where we can talk and have conversations and she can run around and play at the park and we'll go on adventures. She's my bestest little buddy and the best thing to ever happen to me.
She's getting so good at hand eye coordination, and I just love to watch her grow and develop. But the other day while she was in her crib, she didn't realize I was spying on her, but she was reaching for her little rabbit from Once Upon a Whim, and it's little leg was up in the air and she kept grabbing at just underneath it bah ha ha she was so close, less than an inch away, but she kept grasping for it and missing. This probably went on for an entire minute. And I don't know why but it was the most adorable thing ever.
And with her play gym, she used to just swat at the toys and hit them around but now she reaches for them and tries to chew on everything. It's just awesome watching her grow and get a little more coordinated.
And I just had to throw in this behind the scenes outtake ha ha ha sometimes I think Lexi gets a little jealous that she's no longer the only child ;) So when I was busy taking photos of Madison, Lexi came and sat on my feet. Normal, totally normal. Not weird at all ha ha ha I love this silly dog so much.
Phew I feel like this post is extra long? There's just so much I want to remember. If you made it this far, thank you so much for reading! Hope you're having a beautiful day! Take care darlings.
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