Any of you following me on instagram or facebook (or if you've done the math that it's been nearly a month since my last blog post ha ha) probably already know the wonderful news, but I'm just popping in to announce that my little angel is here!
On July 9th my sweet Madison Jane made her debut into this world, and my life has been such a crazy and exciting whirlwind ever since.
I'm a mom you guys. I keep waiting for that realization to sink in, but it still doesn't feel real.
I'm a mom.
I've always dreamt about this and now the moment is finally here.
I never knew I could love someone so fiercely and so instantly.
(She's already outgrown this outfit...makes me want to cry!)
This kid makes my heart explode everyday, and I've never laughed so much in my entire life (and let's get real, I've never cried so much).
I thought for sure I'd be able to blog more once she got here (someone told me newborns sleep a lot? ha ha I wish!) but my sweetheart is dealing with reflux/colic so she's been needing lots of extra loves and attention.
Plus, I'm not gonna lie, when I was told that I would experience sleep deprivation as a new mother, I had no idea the extent of just how little sleep I would get. My best nights I get about four hours of sleep (but today I got six hours and I don't know what to do with myself ha ha) and my worst night, I got 30 minutes.
The sleep deprivation is real people.
But it's all so worth it. As I type this, I have the cutest, most cuddly baby snuggled on my chest and my heart is so full. She's already grown so much (which kind of breaks my heart) and I'm looking forward to all that's to come, but for now, I'll be spending my days getting lots of snuggles from my baby and getting used to rocking at this whole mom thing.
But I just wanted to hop on real quick to share some photos from the last month (picture overload warning) because OH MY GOSH I have the world's most adorable baby. I just melt every time I look at her.
Oh man she's gonna be such a heartbreaker ha ha watch out boys ;)
And this kid is already so fun and spunky I can hardly handle it! Too freaking cute!
As you can see, 95% of my days are spent right here on this exact spot of the couch with this little lady in my arms. Part of me is in heaven and loves all the snuggles and another part of me (like my back and tailbone) is itching for a change ha ha soaking in all these sweet moments while I can but looking forward to the days where Madison feels better and we can start having some fun and going on adventures!
She seriously makes this kissy face every single day! It cracks me up! I like to joke that she's practicing her Blue Steel look from the movie Zoolander ;)
She sure loves her daddy :)
She's getting so chunky I love it!
If you need a headband like this in your life, visit the incredibly talented and ever so sweet Megan's etsy shop www.raydiantapparel.etsy.com. She's the best, and I'm obsessed with these adorable top knot headbands!
And these lovely felt bow headbands can be found at www.bumbelou.etsy.com, handmade by Jenna who's also fantastic and a total sweetheart!
My little princess!
I'm sad the quality of all these photos isn't the best...They've all been taken with my phone as I'm couch bound and because I haven't been in a mental, emotional, or physical place where using my nice camera to properly document things is a possibility.
This first month of her life has definitely been a surprising challenge and not at all what I thought it would be. Having to just sit (because I've tried a million different things and am out of ideas) and hold my baby, who's in distress and screaming at the top of her lungs, for hours at a time because her tummy hurts while feeling completely incapable of helping her is absolutely heartbreaking and messes with me psychologically. I'm hoping we continue to find ways to help her feel better, but at least I know that if nothing else, this colicky stage will soon pass with time. I keep trying to remind myself that God placed her in my hands because he knew I'd have the patience and love to help her get through this, but I'd be lying if I didn't say it's been really hard. I'm doing my best to stay positive and soak in all the sweet moments while I can though because she really is absolutely adorable and the best thing to ever happen to me. Bright happy days are just around the corner I'm sure :)
I mean look at this face? How did I get blessed with such a cute baby??
And I'll be honest, I started this blog post a week and a half ago, and it's taken me until now to be able to finish it ha ha but I have her birth story in the works so hopefully soon ish that will be up to share as well. I just wanted to give a quick update as to how things are looking in my world and share pictures of my beautiful new best friend.
Hope you all are doing well and looking forward to checking back in soon!